Feeling Calm And Collected

WARNING! LONG AND WORDY ENTRY AHEAD.


I don't hate people. It's bad for health. Even if someone hates me, maybe I would, at most, dislike them. Maybe because I understand what the real definition of the word 'HATE' is and thus, I do not misuse it. However, in every matter, there will be exceptions and for this case, I do HATE one particular person. So much that I felt emotionless.

First of all, he has all the pride that every guy DO NOT want and he thinks the hell of it. He thinks that he has the pride that truly marks him a MAN but little does he know, his manly pride got him no where. Alright, maybe you might think that it's okay for guys to have pride and ego but listen (or in this case, read) this. He thinks that he shouldn't cook because GUYS don't cook. Who on Earth thought of this in this MODERN era? I wouldn't blame him if he's from the 17th century though. Plus, when he cooks, he thinks it's delicious but hell no! He cooks shit and he ought to be THANKFUL that we, the poor victim of his disastrous food, eat it. Once, not too long ago, he cooked this utterly disgusting looking potato with dark soy sauce. It's so dark that I don't know there are potatoes hidden beneath the think sauce. The best thing was, when you add dark soy sauce into your dish, it's supposed to be salty but his lovely black whatever is tasteless.

Forget about his pride, maybe other guys are as prideful. I would say he's pretty friendless back when he was in his secondary school. He said it himself that he wants to make more friends in uni. So, yea, for the first few weeks, he DID managed to get a group of friends around him. Yay! Clap your hands! Dance around. However, not only his group of friends did not expand, they actually stay away from him. He's now a lone sole who has no friends (though he still lingers around one or two). But, does he know that those friends that he 'linger' with actually DO NOT want to be with him? I don't know what made people don't want to be with him but in my case, I hate the way he talks to people. So what if you're the smartest in your family? So what if you're the only one who gets to enter university? It's no big deal. I mean, hello! People can enter university even with just credits in their result slip. So please, stop that principle of yours that says, "I get to enter university. I'm smart. Worship me!". Even if you're the smartest or best in your family, doesn't mean you're still the best out there. And just to let you know, your GPA is something that I, or my housemates would NEVER get. It's WAY too low.

Common sense, my dear. If he thinks he's friendless because of me, think twice. I'm not as cheap as him, who will go around spreading bad rumours about me to other people so that they would think as him and hate me. My principle is, I hate you, my problem, let's not involve the others. He has the right to have friends and I do not do shitty stuff so that people hate him. So, if people hate him, in this case, the entire class, don't you think it's a bit too much to put the blame on me? They hate him for what he did, how he talks and how he acts. And now, he's saying that the almighty me influenced people around me to hate him? Frankly speaking, if I could, I would. I would want everyone to know what kind of human he is and he is not worth being with.

One more thing that, in my opinion, makes him a coward. So, he's a guy, he has the manly pride, the sky scrapping ego and the enormous pride. Since he has all those manly criterias in him, why can't he voice out his dissatisfaction when I do something he do not like? Tell me, I'll accept. He's one big freaking coward who will just talk behind your back when he not satisfy with something. If you're man, voice out! I don't see the reason why he can't voice out when he can be such a 'gentleman' and shout at me, a girl. I do think that I have more testosterone in me than him. He's just a coward who hides behind a mask. In uni, he's the jumpy, cheerful, Mr. Nice Guy that people hate but back at home he's a timid, who doesn't talk, doesn't voice his opinion and just hide in his little room. He couldn't even talk to us! How manly can be be?

He's SO oblivious towards things around him. He thought people likes him but the truth is, no, my dear, people hated him. Probably more than how much I hate him. No one wants to be in his assignment group. No one invited him to play football (I mean, we're in the same place, but guys invited me to play football with them but did not even ask him). No one invited him to play DOTA. And I hope he realize that people who used to chat in MSN with him, do not chat with him anymore. And for God's sake, I just want to tell him that, "When you watch porn, be civilized. Don't laugh out hysterically like you've never watch porn before. It makes people think that you're a sex maniac and from your looks, it doesn't help much." I hope he knows that his current assignment mates complaint so much about him to me and regretted that they even group up with him. And oh, no one include him when they discuss about who should be their housemate when they shift to Setapak. Plus, your 'good friend' did not even invite to when we go Ipoh together.

I've been hating him for quite long but I tried not to hate him as much maybe because I pity him for not having REAL friends and my parents always ask me to tolerate. Too bad that I'm born stubborn and my level of tolerance is not high enough to tolerate with his idiotic attitude. This is just maybe 10% of what I really want to express but I don't have the time and energy to waste on this bloody two-faced bastard. Just die, you sucker! Maybe you're wondering who is this 'HE' I've been mentioning all this while, well its...


TAN CHIA GUAN